June 2010
May 2010
“We take a risk when we open our hearts because the truth is, if we open our...”
– Mary Manin Morrissey
“All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.”
– Walt Disney
“Now that she had nothing to lose, she was free.”
– Paulo Coelho
Now, I’m just realllllly pissed off.
Please;
Don’t give up on me, yet. I’ll come around; I promise.<3
So what happens when all this has happened? And you threw it away?
Last night reassured me. Last night was an eye-opener. You texted me, for the first time in I don’t know how long..And ofcourse I was in a bad mood..like I always am now. I wish I could text you and say sorry, but I can’t. It reassured me that you still think about me. I wish I could be your friend, but I can’t. Physically, and emotionally. I’m sorry, I wish things were...
“The girl that seems fine, well- those are the ones you need to look ot for.”
Don’t you like the way regrets taste? You’re...
“You don’t want fifty years to go by and realize that you let the love of your life get away.”-Greys Anatomy
—I’m waiting.
May 23, 2010
Was amazing, period. My life consisted of no drama, no complicated problems and volleyball. And not to be cocky, but today I played THE best games of my life, so far. From beginning to end. I had the best hit of my life, and every single girl on that team was there for it. I’m beginning to become used to those girls, and trusting them all. Not only on the court, but as friends. They’ve...
It took me long enough to realize, but read this:
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. Slower is better. If a relationship ends because they were not treating you as you deserve then fuck no, you can’t “be friends”. A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle for second best. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you....
Now that I look back at it, you where already what I am today, not looking, just empty. Hoping to find something that can make you feel alive again, wanting to feel comfort, wanting to find that moment when you are sure that everything is perfect, that single moment of understanding with another. Now that I look back I can see that you were lost and alone, that you where simply trying to fill a...
I guess I’m trying to say I’m sorry but it always...
For a while I was cleaner than now, Then I started to destroy myself, With the things that I love and the things that I hate, until they finally broke me. Some people say that pictures paint a thousand words, but some passages do too. This passages understands me and comforts me in a place that nothing else can. Its so human. We come into the world perfect little bundles of joy, beautiful and...
“If two past lovers remain friends, they’re either still in love, or never...”
You went from strangers, to lovers, to strangers again, in a matter of months and it felt like it all happened within a blink of eye, leaving you wondering if it even happened at all. For a while, it felt like a nice dream recurring night after night until reality struck, as it always does, making you two wake up to the idea that you were better off as pretending to be friends than pretending...
Keep walking, Don’t look back. It’s not a good view. This is the last time of the last times. I should have done this months ago, I should have, but I didn’t. My heads turning right, trying to catch a glimpse of what used to be. Don’t look back. I can’t help it, where the fuck has my self control gone? My necks tilting right now Nothing. You’re not there, you...
Happy Birthday:
To the best sister I could ever ask for<3 I love you so so so much.
Dear Sammi;
You’re so strong, I respect you for that. But it’s okay if you want to cry, you deserve it. You don’t need him in your life, and trust me from experience he’s just going to do it again, and again, and again. I hate seeing you like this. It’s not you, stay strong, things will get better..Promise.
<3 Kenz
P.S.- You deserve a whole bowl of raviolis, and he...
You wanna play the game? It’s like this. You play around. You have fun. You share your secrets. You tell stories. You cry on eachothers shoulders. You hold hands. You think about forever. But, you do not fall in love. Because the first one who does, loses.
“I don’t know who you’re kissing now. But I do know who you think about when you...”
I’m shaking all over and my head is in constant pain, still. Its been 24 hours since our last “real” conversation. I hate this part. This is the phase where I delete your number. Even though, I know your number by heart. And I feel it coming. Here it is.. Welcome to the Breakdown of Me. Don’t try and understand. Just accept it. No, I’m not okay, But I will be. You never know how bad...
I’d say I’m sorry to disappoint you, but I’m not. I excel at not giving a shit. I excel at not giving a shit to people I delibrately make my past. Experience has taught me that interest begets expectation, and expectation begets disappointment, so the key to avoiding disappointment is to avoid interest. A equals B equals C Equals A, whatever. I also don’t have a lot of interest in being a good...
So you start out, living up a dream with high...
Part of you has control, you think, you rationalise, you use your head and not your heart. The other part of you is crazy. While the former is making every attempt to control what you say and do, you’re gone before it’s been processed. Some instinct in your heart telling you to run and not look back.
This weekend:
Was handsdown, amazing. Full of great times, with great people. For the first time in a long time, I was happy. And I didn’t “wish” for anything more.
Dear Jordan Serbantez,
My sister told me what happened. And I want you to know that you’re so gorgeus, and you don’t deservred to be treated that way. You deserve someone way better then that nasty red headed fucker. Stay strong and keep your head up. He would kill to see you fall, that’s just how guys are. They can’t stand that they’re weak without you. You’re like a little sister to...
I don't get how:
people can try and ruin relationships. This isn’t targeted towards just one person, or to one relationship..Because I’ve been in this situation more then any girl EVER should have to. How two people can be together but other people don’t care. They think they can barge right in and ruin what the two people have worked so hard for. It’s honestly pathetic. Let me say that one...
“It’s so hard to forget pain, but it’s even harder to remember happiness. We have...”
– Chuck Palahniuk
“Because no matter how much a thing hurts, sometimes letting it go hurts even...”
– Dr. Meredith Grey (Grey’s Anatomy) (via quote-book)
“I don’t know why we all hang onto something we know were better off letting go....”
“Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were...”
– Edward Cullen.<3
“Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true...”
– Bertrand Russell
Two Sides:
I hate how there is always two sides to the story, and they are never the same. And most times, neither of the sides are the whole truth. They both are filled with something extra, or with something missing. Each side of every story is designed to make the person telling it “look better.” Do we call that lying? No, because if so then every person in the world is a compulsive liar...
